focusing on my self growth

It’s been a while since I’ve written. There’s been a lot going on. I haven’t lost motivation or inspiration, I just lost time to do it.

Since quarantine first started I have been working on self-growth. Leaving behind toxic relationships and figuring out who I am. I was stuck and forgot my value. Letting people walk all over me was draining and it seemed never-ending. Luckily I was able to move on and start again. Leaving behind emotional trauma and my negative views of myself.

I had been held back and controlled by others. Before I never understood how people stayed after being treated so poorly, but now I get it. There was always a sense of hope, that things would get better. I held onto that hope and was forced to realize that some people aren’t meant to be in your life.

My recent therapy sessions have helped tremendously. I no longer believe that I deserved to be treated so badly. There was nothing else I could have done. I’m continuing to grow each day.

I am confident in who I am and what I deserve. There has been growth in myself that was forced, but necessary for the life I want to live.

I’ve begun a small business selling necklaces. Who knew I would ever do that? My hard work has turned out to provide me happiness.

New friends have entered my life. The ones who were never there for me showed themselves out the door.

Writing has taken a back seat as I adjust to not put too much pressure on myself. Writing will always be a part of who I am, but will no longer cause me stress. Doing something I love will bring a sense of joy.

Blogging was a great distraction until I became too focused. I never thought that was possible, but after time I knew I had to take a step back. This will not be a place to monetize, but instead return to its original meaning; to express who I am

My eagerness has come back. I’m ready to see what’s next in my life surrounded by people who love me. There will be hard times, but I made myself a promise to take it day by day. I cannot lose sight of who I am again, it will never be worth it.